AHSTYN - "Transforming" Track List and Lyrics
AHSTYN - "Transforming" Track List and Lyrics:
1. Emerged (Instrumental)
2. Searching - I can't say I'm happy, but I'm content. I can't say I'm tired, but I feel spent. I can't say I'm angry, but I'm displeased. I can't say I'm healthy, but I'm not diseased. Colors hovering above me. Shapes are calculating math. Circles circling around me. Squares are opening a path. I'm on a journey to free my mind because my nagging thoughts are so unkind.
3. Waves - The movement of the sea is corresponding with me. I'm floating on the surface. The way the water flows is wisdom only the Earth knows. I'm wading in the ocean. The momentum grows. Depression, it comes and goes in waves. It can last for days and leaves me in a coma. Mania, it comes and goes in waves. I'll be spun out for days and it won't leave me alone.
4. Returned - Sweet angel, protect me from who I used to be. Sweet angel, don't be stressed. I'm already more than impressed. Sweet angel, don't you grieve. I feel the love you have for me. Sweet angel, you're forever in my heart until it goes to the opposite of start. Sweet angel, don't you cry. It was only a white lie. Sweet angel, don't worry. You did nothing wrong to me. Sweet angel, no regrets. Sometimes that's as good as it gets. Sweet angel, for now it's goodbye. I'll see you as soon as I arrive in sky. Never mind these things. You completed your mission. So, spread out your wings. It's time to fly back to Heaven. I'll miss your face. I'll miss your smile. I'll miss you so much. I hope that I'll hear from you again. Please keep in touch.
5. Unholy - The darkness wants to destroy me, but I want let it near. The darkness wants to control me, but I won't show it fear. It knows, I'm a force to be reckoned with. It knows, I decide what fucks to give. I'm going to war with my sword and shield. I'm going to battle with the strength I wield. I'm going to war with intent to kill. I'm going to battle pure evil.
6. Crisis - They took my belt and shoe laces. I see familiar faces but I don't know them. Not really. Even though, they are reflections of me. Seventy hour hold. Fifty one fifty. My worst enemy is me. When the time is up, I'm free to go, but I'll be alone in a place I don't know. They wake me up early to draw my sweet blood. I feel it draining from my body like a flash flood. Lithium turns on the feel good chemicals in my brain. Happy pills are making me feel sane. I'm on the baseline and balanced now. I'm feeling better but I'm still wondering how. Far from manic and slightly depressed. At least, I can shower, brush my teeth, and get dressed. I no longer feel dead inside. I have a sense of pride and I'm glad to be alive. I no longer have to hide. The devil lied and the demons died. I'm in a different head space. It's hard to remember all the time that I waste. Once again, I'm able to taste the nectar of life.
7. Aura - Your energy is powerful. I've never seen something that beautiful. Your eternal soul is shining through. The light inside is the real you. Your essence is transcendant. I've never felt something that pleasant. Your infinite soul is breaking through. The love inside is the real you. The glow outlines your silouette. The color of your heart is set in stone. You will never be alone. The gleam illuminates profound. Your level's up without a sound. In tune. You're in sync with the sun and the moon.
8. Chatter - Don't want to hear you saying all the things you said before. Repeatedly bringing up the past will send me out the door. Don't want to hear you whining. It's unnecessary. The more you carry on, the more I push you away from me. Don't want to hear you telling the same stuff anymore. Listening again and again is making my head sore. Don't want to hear you gossip about your silly friends. The constant drama of their lives never fucking ends. Will you be quiet. It's Ok to be silent. Refrain from the verbal violence. You get so triggered by emotion. Wish I had a magic potion that would solve your communication problem.
9. Intuition - You love your tarot cards and crystal shards. They're showing you the way. You trust the ancient fairies and what they have to say. You need me to go now but you would like me to stay. You know what will happen. You've seen it in your dreams. Your otherworldly premonitions become realities. I feel it in you. I sense it in you. You feel it in me. You sense it in me. That's how it's supposed to be. Together sharing energy. A cosmic bond between you and me. Connected synchronicity.
10. Crucifix - Press the cross against my forehead. Burn it deep into my flesh. Exorcise my demons. I'll give you many reasons why I want to be a better person. I'll sacrifice myself for you. It's really what I want to do. I'll sacrifice myself for you and I'll be staying true to my love for you. I didn't think I'd live to see another day. I never thought I'd take the time to pray. I didn't think the pain would go away. I never thought that I would want to stay alive.
11. Healer - Help me. I'm aching all over my body. Please remove the blocks that stops me from my potential. Save me. I'm falling into the darkness. Please turn the lights on that helps show me the way. Align my chakras. Heal my meridians. Cleanse my aura. Start from where love begins. Channel the divine power to put me back together. Use the abundant source to activate the force.
12. Nostalgia - When I was a little kid, it didn't matter what I did. My only job was to play. I'd stay outside and have fun all day. When I was younger, I had an insatiable hunger to be the best. I always put myself to the test, but I came up short. According to the progress report. Then, I'd end up in detention and get put on restriction. Those were the good old days. No responsibility. A sense of truly being free. Wish I could rewind time and go back again for a short while. Just so I can see myself smile.
