AHSTYN "Made of Lavender" Track List and Lyrics

AHSTYN "Made of Lavender" Track List and Lyrics:

1. Lunar (Instrumental)

2. Moon - As I looked at the photos you took, it brought me closer to the night. Gazing at the big bright ball of light, made me see such a beautiful sight. I'm a moon child. I live my life by being wild. I'm a solitary man who barely smiles. I'm a gypsy who's been traveling for miles, and it looks like I'll keep trudging on for a while. It has a way of telling me, it'll be Okay. It has a way of showing me how to live just for today.

3. Funerals - The final curtain closes. The violin plays, end of their days. The piper's been paid. To rest, they've been laid. No more funerals. I've been to more than enough. No more funerals. I've had enough of the dying stuff. Wherever they are, I'm sure it's better than this. No matter how far it is, I'm sure it's pure bliss. So, here's your kisses goodnight and here's your longer goodbyes.

4. Anguish - You have forsaken me because I chose to put up my soul for sale. Now the devil tortures me. Condemned to an eternity of burning in Hell. You have every right and reason to make me feel the guilt and regret for what I've done. You will never forgive my treason. I'll take my lies to the grave and remain a disgraced one. I'm losing my spiritual wealth. I'm neglecting my health. I'm punishing myself. I'm sabotaging myself.

5. Somber - If you could walk in my shoes, then you would feel my blues and what it's like to lose the best part of you. If you could read my mind, then you would find, I'm really sweet and kind. My attitude has nothing to do with you. I'm just moody. I'm just lonely. I'm just wanting somebody who wants to know me. Don't tell me. Show me.

6. Purple - It was your favorite color and suited your personality. Your plush velvet humor was comedy. You were there if I ever needed anything. You were just so nice to me. I'm sorry it had to end. You were such a good friend. I still can't believe your life was taken. Now you reside in your own purple Heaven. The broken clock on your wall is paused at eleven eleven. When I come knocking on your door, go ahead and let me in. It would be good to see you again, my dear friend.

7. Roses - Thorns prick my finger tips. The blood stains the broken stems. The pedals glide gently down to the floor. I'm glad they're not in pain anymore, but I'll miss them a lot for sure. They were two of the coolest roses. They were two of the kindest roses. Where these grow is where they are. They were the most compassionate. They were the most generous. They were the most selfless. Gone too soon, but will come back when more of them bloom. Never forgotten until reincarnation.

8. Here - I'm walking out the door to a place I was before. I don't know how to get there anymore but there's nothing left here to live for. I don't want to be here anymore. My stupid fucking loneliness won't go away. It's a never ending struggle for me everyday. I'm so over dealing with this fear. I'm ready to get the fuck out of here. I'm on a strange planet which isn't my home. On my own. I'm alone. Nobody is as weird as me. This world doesn't make sense to me.

9. Shells - I still have a bag of shells you found on the ground buried deep in the sand. I remember you holding them in the palm of your hand, with an incredible smile which was larger than life. You were supposed to be my wife, but instead I got stabbed in the heart with a razor sharp knife when you tragically lost your life. The sea glass and shells remind me of you. I miss you so much. I miss you. I love you so much. I love you. Dozens of pink roses and bottles of lavender oils remind me of you. Corinthians thirteen thirteen.

10. Beach - We walked together along the shore. We talked to each other for hours. That's what friends are for. We laughed about a lot of silly things. I can't bare the immense pain this brings. I'm trying to accept that you're gone but I'm having difficulty moving on. I want to join you in the sky but I can't reach. So, please come pick me up at the beach. Take me way up in the air super high. I don't care if I fall down and die. I'm thinking about the joy this brings. I can't wait to get my own set of wings.

11. Life - No one said it would be easy, but why does it have to be so hard. I'm so tired of playing this game. It's about time for a change. I'm so sick of the same old shit. It's about time to be fucking done with it.

12. Sun - Attempting to barricade. Hiding from you in the shade. Knowing when I've been beat. I'm keeping out of the heat. I'm sluggish and lethargic. I'm probably allergic. The rays burn my eyes. My stamina dies. Wish I had a switch to shut you off. In the dark, I can regenerate. In the dark, I can rejuvinate.