AHSTYN - "Bipolar Vision" Track List and Lyrics
AHSTYN "Bipolar Vision" Track List and Lyrics:
1. Forecast (Instr.)
2. Above - I'm kind of under the weather. I'm doing a little bit better. I'm sort of feeling happy. This is so unlike me. I'm rolling with the punches. I have some theories and hunches. It doesn't really matter much, so I will release the clutch and go. My mind explodes like fireworks, on 4th of July, up above in the sky. My head blows up like cherry bombs, and now it's on, and I'm feeling alright. If only I could fly, now before I die.
3. Below - Here in the deepest pits of despair. I'm locked inside a cell, I created for myself. I'm in my comfort zone when I'm sad and alone. You can knock on the door, but nobody's home. I'm in my comfort zone in isolation. You can leave a message because I'm on vacation. I can't promise I'll get back to you. I wish I knew why I do what I do. Beneath the sheets of the bed I made, I'll be laid to rest.
4. Manic - Bouncing off the walls like a bat out of Hell. I'm going there again, but I already checked the mail. I can't fucking sleep. I've been awake for two goddamn days, but getting tons of shit done really fucking pays. I can't shut up. I'm running my stupid mouth but I have no idea what the fuck I'm talking about. I spin into a tornado like a fucking tazmanian devil. Watch me as I go. Please enjoy the show. I won't sleep tonight and I'll be eating everything in sight. So, go ahead. Run away. If you don't want to stay, I don't blame ya. I've lost the fight against this fucking bitch called mania.
5. Depressed - I've been dropped from a building, yet I haven't hit the ground. I'm crying out for help, but nobody's around. I can't believe my eyes. I'm falling to my demise. The end is getting closer by the minute, If Hell exists, then I am certainly in it. Frequent thoughts of suicide plague my life. If I tried, I'd be using a dull knife. Thinking and doing are two different things. Part of me wants to see what else my life brings for me.
6. Abyss - It doesn't take a genius to know, I'm a one man show. It doesn't take glasses to see, it is only me. If I'm lost without a trace but, I have a smile on my face, you should call me out without a doubt. If I don't want to be alone, but I won't answer my phone, you should call me out on what that's all about. So, I can get my head above water. I'm coming up for air. I'm suffocating down there. Yeah, I guess I still care. I've spent eternity down there. I really need some air.
7. Caffeine - You're my best friend and my worst enemy. Sometimes you give me terrible anxiety. You ware off too quick, then make me feel sick. During withdrawals, you give me a headache. Having too much of you makes me fucking shake. I still love you, even if I hate you. You give me energy, but you take the life from me.
8. Nicotine - I can't break free. I'm a prisoner that's chained to the walls. I don't think I can stop for good, even if death calls. I've tried so hard to quit, and I've been successful for a time, but I keep picking up where I left off because it calms my mind. It helps me to relax when I'm too high strung. I've been doing this for a long time since I was young. One day, I hope I can win. I don't want to have to do this again.
9. See - My vision's blurred, but I can still see you're having a bad day. Your feelings won't just go away because emotions tend to stay. I'm watching and waiting for you to hit the wall. I'll be right there to lift you up when you start to fall. Look into my eyes until you realize. I see you and you see me, and we're suffering from reality.
10. Listen - The universe has a voice and you have a choice. Can you hear it calling your name? The world starts to speak when you're feeling weak. Can you hear it calling your name? You have to take a break from being strong. You can't stand up straight for too long. Sit down now before your back goes out. Do you hear me, and know what I'm talking about?
11. Speak - Only a few words are needed to get my point across. I've been through a lot of pain and unimaginable loss. I toss the coin into the air, but it always seems to land on tails. I do my best to be my best, but it always fails. I'm speaking my mind and I'm telling the truth. The thing I really miss the most was my troubled youth. I'm still here to tell you, I'm going to do whatever I want. I'm going to tell you, and do whatever the fuck I want to.
12. Thoughts - How can I believe most of what I think is real. I need to throw them in a stream and wash them down the drain. Every time I overthink, it gives me so much pain. I welcome my thoughts to hurt me because I like being abused. I welcome my thoughts to kill me because I'm tired of being used. I welcome my thoughts to hold me because I enjoy the embrace. I welcome my thoughts to love me to replace all the hate I've bestowed upon me.
